A small reprise

I thought M would forget about me, but this morning he sent me some text messages. I phoned him, and foolishly agreed to visit him to discuss our situation face to face.

M likes me. He cares about me. He wants my friendship, though I don't understand why. How do I tell him that I quite enjoy being with him, but don't regard him with great warmth. He's a comfortable man to be around, not an exciting one. He offers kindness, companionship, and good sex. Wheras what I want is solitude.

M was meant to be a stopgap - a brief affair that would help me get over D. But M wants it to be longer and deeper than a brief affair, and I still cry sometimes when I remember my time with D. I'm not very good at endings.

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