Future to the Back

Also, sometimes you make something before you figure out what you want to do with it. For instance, I just spent a week coming up with an olde worlde computere typeface - the kind that only looks right in blurred green.

Numbers Up

My blood sugar is 25. 25 what I don't know, but the healthy level is 5.

My blood pressure is 85/108. 85 what over 108 what I've no idea, but like the rent, it's too damn high.

Other results from my medical exam last week should be coming through soon, but I'm detecting a pattern. Namely, that I could drop dead at any time, and there's a reason I've been feeling like crap all year.

I'm writing this in the 1 or 2 hour window of each day when I can think straight, don't have thudding headaches and don't feel like climbing back into bed.

You know what's really annoying? I didn't get to have messed up health by taking drugs, partying all night, having vast amounts of anonymous sex and enjoying every nerve ending my body's got to offer. No, I just ate too many chocolate biscuits and didn't join a gym. That, and just being alive long enough to turn 40.

So, I'm attempting to develop a taste for carrots, lettuce, yoghurt, apples and anything else that doesn't contain simple carbohydrates. I'll let you know if it's worth it.

3.14: Rational Dreams (Excerpt)

A C90 cassette has room for, amazingly, 90 minutes - 45 minutes on each side. The physical tape has space for 4 'lanes' of ferromagnetic recording - stereo left and right on side A, and left and right on side B.

A 4-track cassette recorder uses all four lanes on the same 'side', giving 45 minutes. But in runs the tape at double speed, giving you about 22 minutes.

So the longest piece of music I could compose would be about 22 minutes long. So that's what I did, and this piece is a 4 minute excerpt of one of my 'epics'.

I was getting into ambient music, much influenced by The Orb, and this one breaks ground in having...no drums at all.

This must have been about 1992, because about then I managed to get...MIDI! I hacked a sequencer program to replace onboard sounds with my own samples, and made 5 or 6 albums with it. Almost nothing from which escaped the memory hole.

But it's okay, because although the playing was much better, and the sound quality improved, most of it was decidedly ordinary, and didn't feel like making music by hand anymore.

"Simply a look can break your heart."

"I'm going there. But I like it here."
- Joss Ackland

"A nation is never really beaten until it sells its women."
- Oswald Spengler

3.14: Relax 2

'Relax 1' was a 20 minute hypnotherapy tape set to music. This was an afterthought.

"You don't know who's naked until the tide goes out."
- Warren Buffett

"The road to communism is taking liberal democracy literally."
- Slavoj Zizek

"We cannot defeat liars by lying to them."
- John Le Carre

"The price of a small change is a large change."
- Slavoj Zizek